Aquarius (Jan 20-Feb 18)
Put away the to-do-list. Cut your responsibilities down to the minimum level. You need the rest, and feel 10 times more energetic on Monday if you take every bit of relaxation you can get.

The other night, I found myself crying while watching a certain guy host traveling to Rio de Janiero on Travel and Living. The show was not something to cry about. In fact the host had his share of bloopers. I didn't know how my crying came about. I guess my subconscious mind just became tired of processing my frustrations and finally broke down.  I couldn't stop myself from sobbing. I had difficulty catching my breath. My nose was clogged. And the crying went on and on and on. I turned of the TV and listened to Pinikpikan's Atas. I tought their music would somehow console me and stop me from sobbing. But I was wrong. I remained in that state for some time.

And yes, the one-million dollar question; what was I crying all about?

I just felt that I have acquired responsibilities that were supposed to be not mine. But being the only child around, I was left with no choice but to take over those duties. I thought that at this age, I am supposed to be enjoying my youth and singlehood. Yet, in everything I do, I had to consider many things. Everything had to a product of better judgment. I had to consider gazillions of factors before I could come up with a decision -- canceling a trip to Davao, Baguio, Cebu, and Bohol, declining an invitation to watch Cynthia Alexander's gig, postponing my plan to take MA, putting aside my application for Volunteer Teacher, withdrawing my attendance in a photography workshops, etc. etc.

I am not complaining. In fact it feels great to be doing those responsibilities. It gives me a sense of fulfillment. I think I just need a pat on the back. Somehow, I want the emotional support from the people around me to be apparent. As my psyche professor would put it, positive reinforcement plays a vital role in one's life. As per my horoscope, I guess I need a break.